jeudi 24 juillet 2008

Chillin' on the Plains with the Beatle

July 20/08 - Free outdoor Paul McCartney concert on the Plains of Abraham, Québec City.



250,000 people. 7 hours of waiting. One unforgettable experience.

To be honest, my initial motivation for going to this concert was for spite -- for not getting Céline Dion tickets after several failed attempts. My days here in Québec are numbered, and I was planning on taking in as much as possible before leaving. Before the concert, I thought that Sir Paul's performance would probably be OK, but not having heard any of his recent recordings, I expected a night of so-so music by a washed-up has-been (wow, that sounds cruel). I was delightfully wrong.

The concert was to start after 9pm, and the 400th Anniversary Society announced that the gates to the concert grounds would be opened at 5pm. I showed up on the Plains at 3pm, and there was already a huge lineup of tens of thousands of eager fans, waiting to get into the section that would face the stage. To the right of the lineup, I saw a giant screen facing an 'overflow section.' Hmmm, do I get in line and stand waiting for several hours and risk not getting a great view on the other side, or take my 'bird in the hand' and set up my little camp right in front of the screen? Being vertically-challenged, the decision was easy. :) Not only did I get a great spot in front of the screen (where I promptly set up my blanket and laid in the sun while everyone else stood in a long, hot, crowded line-up), but when the gates opened to let everyone into the concert area, the overflow section thinned out even further and I was able to get as close as I wanted to the screen.

I had planned on meeting three friends (for whom I saved a spot on my little 'blanket camp'), but for various reasons, all three were hindered from meeting me there. I was OK with that, except for one moment halfway through my wait when I needed to leave to 'use the facilities'. Hmmm ... who in the group of complete strangers around me do I trust to watch my stuff? That decision took about 15 minutes as I scoped out the pot-smoking group of 30-something ladies on my right, the romantic 40-something couple eating cheese and drinking wine just behind me, and the man to my left who seemed to be reserving a section for everyone he knew. I watched them as inconspicuously as I could, but I probably made a few of them nervous. ha. Finally, I decided on wine-and-cheese couple, who readily agreed to help me out.

One great quality of people in Québec City is that for the most part, they are among the friendliest people I have ever met (rivalling even my prairie neighbours). Complete strangers will talk to you in the park, in line at the store, on the bus, you name it. And so far, none have been visibly put off by my anglo-French. Some even take the opportunity to encourage you in the attempt to integrate. A lady at Tim Hortons helped me out with an order I was having trouble ordering, and as I apologized for butchering the French, she smiled and said, "No, don't worry about it. We're just so glad when people just try to speak French." This has not been uncommon during my time here. I have yet to have a negative/anti-Anglo experience. Often, people here have asked me, "How have you found the people here in Québec?" I always answer with, "Seriously, Quebeckers need a better PR manager, because everyone has been so kind and helpful. The media really does this province a real disservice." This was highlighted, too, in the (very, very minor) controversy surrounding Paul McCartney coming to do a concert on the Plains of Abraham for Québec City's 400th birthday. For those of you who may not know, the Plains of Abraham are the exact site where the English and the French had it out for the last time. There was an EXTREMELY tiny group of malcontent artists and PQ politicians who wrote a letter to Paul McCartney just days before the concert, saying that he should reconsider coming because his presence (as a Brit) would bring up bad memories (?) of the English conquest on that very site back in the 1700s. In an interview with a local news station, Paul was asked about his reaction to this group's letter. He gracefully replied, "Well, I just came here so we can all have a good time. If that logic were sound, then I should never speak to Germans or sing in Germany. But I have German friends, and I have sung in Germany. Let's just bury the hatchet and have a great night." Not only was the rest of the population of Québec embarrassed by this tiny, insignificant group of protesters, but this same group that poo-pooed Paul came out after the concert and said that the media had misrepresented them, that they liked Paul and that they just wanted to inform him of the city's controversial history. The saddest part of all this is that this tiny 'misunderstood' group is the only part of the incredible event that got English media coverage. So, as your unofficial anglo-insider to Québécois culture, I am here to tell you to take media coverage of Québec with a grain of salt. Every society has its malcontents (in Vancouver, it's the anti-olympics vandals, the über-crazy PETA supporters, etc.), and this protest group just happens to have chosen linguistic survival as their cause. The average Quebecker is exactly like any other Canadian, and most of them are embarassed by those who make the news. Imagine if British Columbians were defined by our DUI-indicted Premier, or Saskatchewanites by their 'less-than-politically-correct' politicians. There, my little rant is over --- AND NOW, BACK TO THE CONCERT!

Speaking of friendly Québeckers, I made a few new friends at the concert. During one of the opening acts, an older couple was walking through the crowd trying to find the perfect place to sit down. They saw that there was extra space on my blanket, and asked if they could just sit down for a few minutes while I waited for my friends. I said sure, then called my friends to see where they were at. My friends informed me that security wouldn't let them into my section, so I told my new 'blanket-mates' that if they wanted, they could stay with me for the concert. They were so happy - true to French form, they each gave me a big kiss. My anglo sensibilities would have been happy with a thank-you and a handshake, but oh well, friendly is friendly, right? haha. We're so uptight. :)

Soon after about 9:30, the jumbotron came back on and without an introduction, Sir Paul McCartney started right into 'Jet'. The crowd went crazy -- and stayed crazy for the duration of the 2.5 hour concert (no intermission!). He sounds (and looks) as good as ever, and his new band played his greatest hits (Beatles stuff, Wings, and some solo numbers) exactly like they were done originally. What a show ... it wasn't until he started playing some Beatles hits I recognized that I realized that this was a chance of a lifetime. Who would have thought that I, born some 20 years after he started with the Beatles, would, at 29, get to a 'Beatle' concert? Beatles music is the soundtrack to fun times in the summer, and that's exactly what it was like ... only being serenaded by the man himself with 250,000 of your closest friends singing along. The weather was perfect, the crowd was courteous yet exuberant, and it really couldn't have come off any better. He even made a valiant effort to speak French in between songs (to the incredible delight of the crowd, who probably wouldn't have cared if he spoke English anyway). They reacted especially to 'Michelle, ma belle' (which is a love song to a French woman), 'Yesterday', and 'All my lovin'. He introduced 'Birthday' by saying, "Cette chanson est pour une dame qui a 400 ans" (this song is for a woman who is 400 years old, in reference to the city's birthday).

The 'crème de la crème' for the crowd was on one of his encores, when he ran out onto the stage brandishing a ginormous Québec flag. The audience went nuts - even the 400th anniversary committee has been hesitant to use the 'fleur-de-lys' anywhere in their advertising for fear that it might suggest some sort of separatist political statement. And here, for the first time in the official festivities, who comes out waving a giant Québec flag for all to see? A Brit. :) It was a goosebumpy moment. And the next day, contrary to all the English-language press who focused on the handful of protestors, the French press focused only on the warm-fuzzies the entire city was basking in (and still are, and that was 5 days ago). There was even footage of an eager fan who followed Sir Paul's limo to get an autograph. SP told his driver to stop the car, he rolled down the window and offered to sign the man's guitar. You should have seen the reaction of the man with the newly autographed instrument - I have never seen anything like it. He was so excited I thought he may need to be admitted to hospital. The news reporter who witnessed the event tried to get an interview with the man, but he was so excited that he couldn't answer any questions -- he was running around screaming, almost like he may throw up or pass out. What an incredible gift to the city this concert was -- you would have thought the Pope was coming for the way people reacted to Sir Paul. A super great experience - I know I'll never forget it.

Updated pics of my favourite people!

Mom and Dad at the restaurant 'Le Cochon Dingue' (The Crazy Pig) in Québec City -- ask Dad about ordering a 'Mr. Crunchy' hahahaha.

Erin and Dan in a barley field near Hague, SK.

Erin and Dan on the front stoop of their house, waiting for the bus. :)

Daniel and Carolyn on a walk at Batoche, SK.

Daniel and James on a walk around their new hometown of Osler, SK.

My 'just-turned-one' nephew, James. Ain't he cute? :)

My 'just-turned-14' niece Bekah. She and Dan are going to restore an old car together ... this is the one she wants. :)

vendredi 18 juillet 2008

Youthful Enthusiasm

Just in case you haven't gotten enough of Kristen's niece and nephew on Facebook ... :) And in a few short months, you will be bombarded with even more pics of her newest niece/nephew (Erin's baby). Can't wait! More pics of my latest visit to come ...

If you haven't already seen it, you need to head to YouTube and check out the following video:

http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=FBJVrkRxIJQ

It's the music video of the Newsboys song "Something Beautiful", shot in conjunction with the film "Miss HIV", a movie aimed at taking the stigma out of HIV/AIDS. I played the music video at least 10 times in a row tonight. I found it as I was looking on YouTube for songs from the 90s that used to really move me. "Shine" (also by the Newsboys) would absolutely be the soundtrack to my later years in high school - there's something about that song that still gives me goosebumps.

It got me thinking a little ... in a few short months, I will be 30, twice as old as I was when "Shine" was playing incessantly on my walkman. Life has changed a LOT since then. High school, Bible college, other years of post-secondary, many loved ones in heaven and about as many have been added to my family. I've moved from Nipawin (back in those days, I was sure I'd never leave!) and changed career plans a dozen times: medical researcher, pharmacist, working with orphans in Africa, missionary, French Immersion teacher, working with street people, opening up a free ESL school and living in Chinatown in Vancouver, translator, etc, etc. etc. Never did ANY of those things, but God's 'alternate plans' were an even better fit that I could never have planned out for myself. It's funny, though, how even when we get involved in projects and causes that are intended to save the world how we can so easily lose sight of why we do these things. It seems like a cyclical reaction to life -- in high school, I was ready and willing to do anything to make the world a better place, then a little slump near the end of Bible school (which coincided with an unfortunate reaction to Mefloquine). Then, with a box of clothes, a box of books and a one way ticket, I lept into Vancouver ready for whatever lay in wait for me there ... then a slump a few years later when I burned out badly in my ESL career. And, true to form, another injection of hope as I went back to school in a completely different direction, and currently, a weird feeling of unsettledness at an important crossroads. School is nearly done ... so now what? Part of me is so desperate for a stable life. Being in school and moving around every few months has been unsettling and my 30 year old female instincts tell me to stop and nest ASAP :) Another part of me hears incredible songs (like those Newsboys ones), sees people like Nelson Mandela on TV, has her heart tweaked by causes and wonders if she isn't becoming distracted by the ease of life here in the Canadian 21st century.

I come to this place often ... wondering if my life is on track, if I'm headed where I should be. I have to admit that one of the hardest things in life for me is 'translating' good parts of my past into the present. For example, growing up, I had a pre-established social network -- school, kids at NBI, etc. Being painfully shy, this was great; I rarely needed to introduce myself, and my reasons for hanging out with most people in my social sphere were obvious: we were in the same class for years, our parents worked together, etc. Then I moved to Vancouver -- which I loved, mind you -- but dang, how on earth do you make friends like the good old days when your neighbours don't even speak English? I keep running into problems like this and my sinister mind keeps telling me that unless I completely 'recreate' the way things were when I was younger (when life was so much less complicated), then I am a complete failure. I was tempted to think that tonight in listening to those songs from my teenage years -- why aren't I as gung-ho for causes like I used to be? I probably could stand to be little more moved in the 'youthful enthusiasm' department, but I need to remind myself that success in these areas at 30 is going to look different than it did back then ... and in a good way. Back then, sure, the world seemed much more black and white, but it was also more complicated with self-esteem questions, wacked-out hormones and other reasons for teenage angst. My world today may seem way more complicated and more grey than I had hoped, but at this point in life, I am finally in a position to do something significant about it. My sister encouraged me the other day, saying that I should be happy to be turning 30 because there is no longer any reason for people not to take me seriously anymore. :)

So now the question is, where do I go from here? I am at a major crossroads right now -- just about done school and starting to look for work. I will be moving home with my parents in mid-August, and from there, I have no idea what kind of work I will be involved in or even where I will live (I'm thinking Vancouver/Victoria, but who knows?). I could use your prayers as I try to sort this all out. I'm still in the excited/hopeful stage, and I pray that I find direction before that hope turns to lost discouragement. That being said, this year has taught me that if I have a safe place to sleep, food to eat, and people who love me, it's all good. I told myself that again just the other day when my fridge completely died and now all I have to eat for the next 4 weeks are non-refrigerated/non-cooked food items. Yet, I'm not starving, I'm safe in my little 100sq. ft living space, I have people who love me, and for that I should be very thankful. That's more than many and I'm trying not to forget that.

Well, it's late, and I should really get to bed. Hope you are all well, and I would love to hear from you soon. Take care,

Love, KNL

vendredi 16 mai 2008

God of the 20%


Well, it's mid-May, and the first signs of spring are finally out after an endless, wicked winter. Between mid-November and mid-April, Quebec City received more than 540cm of snow (about 18ft), and there are still some snowbanks that meteorologists say will still be here in late July. Thankfully, though, it's warming up and we've had no relapses back into winter since mid-April.
My pics of Quebec now have a little colour and that makes me very, very happy. :)

On May 1st, I wrote my last final exam and handed in my last term paper. A couple days ago, I got my final marks, and thank God, I passed everything (and even did a little better than I expected)! God certainly gets every ounce of credit for any success I may have had this last term. This semester was supposed to be a little easier than last semester, but somehow, my motivation and confidence levels have been at an all-time low these last few months. I used to delight in school, and lately, I have been dragging myself through 'all the hoops' just to get it done. Maybe I bit off more than I could chew. Maybe it's a sure sign that the end of school is near ... who knows. No matter what, I am just so thankful that the worst is over, and that all I have left to do is my thesis project (which should be done sometime between October and Christmas). Back in January, on the advice of many other friends who got to the thesis stage in their degree and joined the work force before they were done (and subsequently never finished their degrees), I decided to stay in Quebec until EVERYTHING was done (thesis and all). Before this, I had given myself the option to come home (or go stay with my sibs on the prairies) to write my thesis, but knowing me, I would spend all my time with my family and no time on my homework. Deciding to stay here in Quebec through the summer made me super homesick, but God has provided a little relief by sending Erin and her friend Abbie out here in February, and my Mom and Dad out here in June. I am so thankful for that - I know that coming here is a very expensive ticket, and I appreciate how much they love me for coming to Quebec when they could otherwise go to more tropical (English-speaking) destinations. :)

As for that class I mentioned in my last post (the one with all weekly oral presentations) ... by some miracle, God spared me every single week of the semester (probability: 20% chance of never getting selected). Crazy odds, but what are odds to the God Who determines the fate of His children? Now, to most people, this may not seem like an important event to call for God's divine intervention, but for me, it was huge. For starters, these spontaneous debates are to be done in French with other scholarly francophones (like a fifth grader debating quantum physics with a room full of PhD's), and for me, there was an extra challenge that caused me an inordinate amount of anxiety. Some of you may already know that my whole life, I have struggled with a moderate (6/10) level of stuttering. It was much worse as a kid (more like 8/10), but as I've gotten older, I've found ways either to substitute words I cannot pronounce with other ones, or just avoid talking altogether. Unfortunately, my success in improving my spoken English has had no effect on my spoken French, and since arriving in this completely French environment back in August, my stuttering difficulties have come back with a vengeance. On a good day in English, I can get out 60% of what I want to say. When I'm low on sleep or stressed out (or in my second language), I only can say about 30% of what I really would like to say. Just imagine not being able to say every third word you want to say, and needing to either:

a) come up with an equivalent pronounceable word on the spot

b) ending your sentence early and pretending you meant to

c) just not even trying to say anything for fear that the conversation will end embarassingly.

I often wonder if I would be a chattier person if not for these problems :), but being quiet has its own advantages, I'm sure. One of them is clearly spelled out in 2 Corinthians 12: 7-10:

To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Another passage is found in John 9:1-3:
As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked him, "Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?"

"Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life.

So, as I understand it, our weaknesses have the remarkable effect of reminding us to depend on God. Through this one weakness of mine (and I have many), I am daily reminded that I need God even to get out the basic communications needed to get through my day. I need His help to talk with my profs about my schoolwork. I need His help on the phone when I call for information. I even need His help to order Chicken McNuggets at Micky D's (which I don't eat anymore - why do we pay for that stuff anyway? ha). So even though I would pray away this difficulty in a second if I could, I will try instead to focus more on the God who never asks me to do more than I am capable. Another passage I have drawn confort from is in Exodus 4:10-12:
Moses said to the LORD, "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue."

The LORD said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."

Another way God has been helping me work through this frustrating scenario is by providing me with a great (yet pricy) speech therapist here in Quebec City. Stuttering is a condition for which there is no 100% cure, but there seem to be some coping techniques that can help improve a stutterer's fluency. My therapist has been a real encouragement these past few weeks, and even if my stuttering only improves marginally, it will have been worth it just to be able to talk to an expert about a problem that is highly misunderstood by a lot of people.

On a more exciting topic, on May 29th, the Governor General will be hosting a special luncheon at the Citadelle (her official residence here in Quebec City) to inaugurate a redoubt and to celebrate the city's 400th anniversary. She invited a delegation from ULaval to attend, and I was chosen among other students and staff at our school! I know, most people wouldn't be excited in the least about this, but like my good friend Allison says, "It's like a country fan having lunch with Garth Brooks," (she's a huge fan). ha. Out west, we never seem to get opportunities like this to be involved in government stuff, so I am excited to be a part of it now.

Well, I better get going. Hope you are all well, and hope to hear from you sometime soon.
Take care,

KNL

lundi 3 mars 2008

Winter fun


Sorry it's been so long since I updated this ... kinda forgot about it, then got super busy. My Christmas cards haven't even been sent out yet. :( It was a nice thought, but if they get out before July, I will be happy. ha.

This semester has been crazy busy, but in good ways. School started Jan. 14th and it was nice to not have to relearn all the little detail-things that complicate a first semester somewhere. About four weeks later, my sister Erin and her good friend Abbie (in the pic with me) came for a 9-day trip to see me here in Québec. We bunked out in my tiny dorm room, and had a super great time together. Erin is the first person from home to see where I'm at, and that was really special. After they left, I got a little caught up in my classes then headed down to Sherbrooke to see my good friend Greta for a few days. She and I go way back, to when she was in her first year at NBI and I was still in high school. It was great to see her - we figured we hadn't seen each other in at least 8 years. Lots of catching up, lots of funny memories. :) I am so thankful for friends like that.

Now the 'social high' is over, and things are mellowing a little. I am really anxious to get my classes over with. They have been probably the hardest part about being here (besides the financial stuff last semester). I think my courses are a little easier this semester than last, but they still stress me out, especially the giant oral presentations and stuff. I have this one class where we have to write a two-page essay every week on something we found interesting in the reading. That part of the assignment is super easy, but the prof has decided that every week, he will pull out 5 names out of an envelope, and those 5 people will need to present their thesis to the class - no cue cards or anything - and then have the class drill them on the flaws in their logic. Terrifying enough, but the worst part is that, even if your name gets picked, he puts all the names back in for next week, so potentially you could be chosen every single week ... or not at all. I don't remember the last time I prayed so specifically and desperately for something (sad, I know, other things should move me more than oral presentations, but we'll work on that later), and against statistical odds (which I now know how to calculate), I have not been chosen in 5 weeks. 2 more to go till the end. This is already a miracle for me, but 'total immunity' would be superb. :) I'll keep you posted.

Another funny 'mini-victory' happened on the weekend. My ESL class always bugs me about having trouble ordering food at McDonald's. The joke is that I can explain political nuances and government stuff with little difficulty, but have trouble with the day-to-day things I never learned outside the classroom. Anyway, it has been my goal to get up to the counter at Micky D's and order "Poulet McCroquettes" (Poo-let-mik-crlo-ket) - harder to say than it looks. I got up my courage, marched up to the lady at the till, looked her square in the eye and said, "J'aimerais 6 morceaux de Poulet McCroquettes." And for a split second, I felt great, until she said, "Et quelle sauce voudrais-tu?" Sauce? Dang! I have no idea how they translate from English to French ... I jogged my memory and thanks to years of studying food labels one came to me, but of course, not the one I wanted. :) Small victory, but funny nonetheless.

Anyway, I better get back to homework or something else productive. Miss you all very much, and hope you are well where you're at.

Kristen