jeudi 24 juillet 2008

Chillin' on the Plains with the Beatle

July 20/08 - Free outdoor Paul McCartney concert on the Plains of Abraham, Québec City.



250,000 people. 7 hours of waiting. One unforgettable experience.

To be honest, my initial motivation for going to this concert was for spite -- for not getting Céline Dion tickets after several failed attempts. My days here in Québec are numbered, and I was planning on taking in as much as possible before leaving. Before the concert, I thought that Sir Paul's performance would probably be OK, but not having heard any of his recent recordings, I expected a night of so-so music by a washed-up has-been (wow, that sounds cruel). I was delightfully wrong.

The concert was to start after 9pm, and the 400th Anniversary Society announced that the gates to the concert grounds would be opened at 5pm. I showed up on the Plains at 3pm, and there was already a huge lineup of tens of thousands of eager fans, waiting to get into the section that would face the stage. To the right of the lineup, I saw a giant screen facing an 'overflow section.' Hmmm, do I get in line and stand waiting for several hours and risk not getting a great view on the other side, or take my 'bird in the hand' and set up my little camp right in front of the screen? Being vertically-challenged, the decision was easy. :) Not only did I get a great spot in front of the screen (where I promptly set up my blanket and laid in the sun while everyone else stood in a long, hot, crowded line-up), but when the gates opened to let everyone into the concert area, the overflow section thinned out even further and I was able to get as close as I wanted to the screen.

I had planned on meeting three friends (for whom I saved a spot on my little 'blanket camp'), but for various reasons, all three were hindered from meeting me there. I was OK with that, except for one moment halfway through my wait when I needed to leave to 'use the facilities'. Hmmm ... who in the group of complete strangers around me do I trust to watch my stuff? That decision took about 15 minutes as I scoped out the pot-smoking group of 30-something ladies on my right, the romantic 40-something couple eating cheese and drinking wine just behind me, and the man to my left who seemed to be reserving a section for everyone he knew. I watched them as inconspicuously as I could, but I probably made a few of them nervous. ha. Finally, I decided on wine-and-cheese couple, who readily agreed to help me out.

One great quality of people in Québec City is that for the most part, they are among the friendliest people I have ever met (rivalling even my prairie neighbours). Complete strangers will talk to you in the park, in line at the store, on the bus, you name it. And so far, none have been visibly put off by my anglo-French. Some even take the opportunity to encourage you in the attempt to integrate. A lady at Tim Hortons helped me out with an order I was having trouble ordering, and as I apologized for butchering the French, she smiled and said, "No, don't worry about it. We're just so glad when people just try to speak French." This has not been uncommon during my time here. I have yet to have a negative/anti-Anglo experience. Often, people here have asked me, "How have you found the people here in Québec?" I always answer with, "Seriously, Quebeckers need a better PR manager, because everyone has been so kind and helpful. The media really does this province a real disservice." This was highlighted, too, in the (very, very minor) controversy surrounding Paul McCartney coming to do a concert on the Plains of Abraham for Québec City's 400th birthday. For those of you who may not know, the Plains of Abraham are the exact site where the English and the French had it out for the last time. There was an EXTREMELY tiny group of malcontent artists and PQ politicians who wrote a letter to Paul McCartney just days before the concert, saying that he should reconsider coming because his presence (as a Brit) would bring up bad memories (?) of the English conquest on that very site back in the 1700s. In an interview with a local news station, Paul was asked about his reaction to this group's letter. He gracefully replied, "Well, I just came here so we can all have a good time. If that logic were sound, then I should never speak to Germans or sing in Germany. But I have German friends, and I have sung in Germany. Let's just bury the hatchet and have a great night." Not only was the rest of the population of Québec embarrassed by this tiny, insignificant group of protesters, but this same group that poo-pooed Paul came out after the concert and said that the media had misrepresented them, that they liked Paul and that they just wanted to inform him of the city's controversial history. The saddest part of all this is that this tiny 'misunderstood' group is the only part of the incredible event that got English media coverage. So, as your unofficial anglo-insider to Québécois culture, I am here to tell you to take media coverage of Québec with a grain of salt. Every society has its malcontents (in Vancouver, it's the anti-olympics vandals, the über-crazy PETA supporters, etc.), and this protest group just happens to have chosen linguistic survival as their cause. The average Quebecker is exactly like any other Canadian, and most of them are embarassed by those who make the news. Imagine if British Columbians were defined by our DUI-indicted Premier, or Saskatchewanites by their 'less-than-politically-correct' politicians. There, my little rant is over --- AND NOW, BACK TO THE CONCERT!

Speaking of friendly Québeckers, I made a few new friends at the concert. During one of the opening acts, an older couple was walking through the crowd trying to find the perfect place to sit down. They saw that there was extra space on my blanket, and asked if they could just sit down for a few minutes while I waited for my friends. I said sure, then called my friends to see where they were at. My friends informed me that security wouldn't let them into my section, so I told my new 'blanket-mates' that if they wanted, they could stay with me for the concert. They were so happy - true to French form, they each gave me a big kiss. My anglo sensibilities would have been happy with a thank-you and a handshake, but oh well, friendly is friendly, right? haha. We're so uptight. :)

Soon after about 9:30, the jumbotron came back on and without an introduction, Sir Paul McCartney started right into 'Jet'. The crowd went crazy -- and stayed crazy for the duration of the 2.5 hour concert (no intermission!). He sounds (and looks) as good as ever, and his new band played his greatest hits (Beatles stuff, Wings, and some solo numbers) exactly like they were done originally. What a show ... it wasn't until he started playing some Beatles hits I recognized that I realized that this was a chance of a lifetime. Who would have thought that I, born some 20 years after he started with the Beatles, would, at 29, get to a 'Beatle' concert? Beatles music is the soundtrack to fun times in the summer, and that's exactly what it was like ... only being serenaded by the man himself with 250,000 of your closest friends singing along. The weather was perfect, the crowd was courteous yet exuberant, and it really couldn't have come off any better. He even made a valiant effort to speak French in between songs (to the incredible delight of the crowd, who probably wouldn't have cared if he spoke English anyway). They reacted especially to 'Michelle, ma belle' (which is a love song to a French woman), 'Yesterday', and 'All my lovin'. He introduced 'Birthday' by saying, "Cette chanson est pour une dame qui a 400 ans" (this song is for a woman who is 400 years old, in reference to the city's birthday).

The 'crème de la crème' for the crowd was on one of his encores, when he ran out onto the stage brandishing a ginormous Québec flag. The audience went nuts - even the 400th anniversary committee has been hesitant to use the 'fleur-de-lys' anywhere in their advertising for fear that it might suggest some sort of separatist political statement. And here, for the first time in the official festivities, who comes out waving a giant Québec flag for all to see? A Brit. :) It was a goosebumpy moment. And the next day, contrary to all the English-language press who focused on the handful of protestors, the French press focused only on the warm-fuzzies the entire city was basking in (and still are, and that was 5 days ago). There was even footage of an eager fan who followed Sir Paul's limo to get an autograph. SP told his driver to stop the car, he rolled down the window and offered to sign the man's guitar. You should have seen the reaction of the man with the newly autographed instrument - I have never seen anything like it. He was so excited I thought he may need to be admitted to hospital. The news reporter who witnessed the event tried to get an interview with the man, but he was so excited that he couldn't answer any questions -- he was running around screaming, almost like he may throw up or pass out. What an incredible gift to the city this concert was -- you would have thought the Pope was coming for the way people reacted to Sir Paul. A super great experience - I know I'll never forget it.

Updated pics of my favourite people!

Mom and Dad at the restaurant 'Le Cochon Dingue' (The Crazy Pig) in Québec City -- ask Dad about ordering a 'Mr. Crunchy' hahahaha.

Erin and Dan in a barley field near Hague, SK.

Erin and Dan on the front stoop of their house, waiting for the bus. :)

Daniel and Carolyn on a walk at Batoche, SK.

Daniel and James on a walk around their new hometown of Osler, SK.

My 'just-turned-one' nephew, James. Ain't he cute? :)

My 'just-turned-14' niece Bekah. She and Dan are going to restore an old car together ... this is the one she wants. :)

vendredi 18 juillet 2008

Youthful Enthusiasm

Just in case you haven't gotten enough of Kristen's niece and nephew on Facebook ... :) And in a few short months, you will be bombarded with even more pics of her newest niece/nephew (Erin's baby). Can't wait! More pics of my latest visit to come ...

If you haven't already seen it, you need to head to YouTube and check out the following video:

http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=FBJVrkRxIJQ

It's the music video of the Newsboys song "Something Beautiful", shot in conjunction with the film "Miss HIV", a movie aimed at taking the stigma out of HIV/AIDS. I played the music video at least 10 times in a row tonight. I found it as I was looking on YouTube for songs from the 90s that used to really move me. "Shine" (also by the Newsboys) would absolutely be the soundtrack to my later years in high school - there's something about that song that still gives me goosebumps.

It got me thinking a little ... in a few short months, I will be 30, twice as old as I was when "Shine" was playing incessantly on my walkman. Life has changed a LOT since then. High school, Bible college, other years of post-secondary, many loved ones in heaven and about as many have been added to my family. I've moved from Nipawin (back in those days, I was sure I'd never leave!) and changed career plans a dozen times: medical researcher, pharmacist, working with orphans in Africa, missionary, French Immersion teacher, working with street people, opening up a free ESL school and living in Chinatown in Vancouver, translator, etc, etc. etc. Never did ANY of those things, but God's 'alternate plans' were an even better fit that I could never have planned out for myself. It's funny, though, how even when we get involved in projects and causes that are intended to save the world how we can so easily lose sight of why we do these things. It seems like a cyclical reaction to life -- in high school, I was ready and willing to do anything to make the world a better place, then a little slump near the end of Bible school (which coincided with an unfortunate reaction to Mefloquine). Then, with a box of clothes, a box of books and a one way ticket, I lept into Vancouver ready for whatever lay in wait for me there ... then a slump a few years later when I burned out badly in my ESL career. And, true to form, another injection of hope as I went back to school in a completely different direction, and currently, a weird feeling of unsettledness at an important crossroads. School is nearly done ... so now what? Part of me is so desperate for a stable life. Being in school and moving around every few months has been unsettling and my 30 year old female instincts tell me to stop and nest ASAP :) Another part of me hears incredible songs (like those Newsboys ones), sees people like Nelson Mandela on TV, has her heart tweaked by causes and wonders if she isn't becoming distracted by the ease of life here in the Canadian 21st century.

I come to this place often ... wondering if my life is on track, if I'm headed where I should be. I have to admit that one of the hardest things in life for me is 'translating' good parts of my past into the present. For example, growing up, I had a pre-established social network -- school, kids at NBI, etc. Being painfully shy, this was great; I rarely needed to introduce myself, and my reasons for hanging out with most people in my social sphere were obvious: we were in the same class for years, our parents worked together, etc. Then I moved to Vancouver -- which I loved, mind you -- but dang, how on earth do you make friends like the good old days when your neighbours don't even speak English? I keep running into problems like this and my sinister mind keeps telling me that unless I completely 'recreate' the way things were when I was younger (when life was so much less complicated), then I am a complete failure. I was tempted to think that tonight in listening to those songs from my teenage years -- why aren't I as gung-ho for causes like I used to be? I probably could stand to be little more moved in the 'youthful enthusiasm' department, but I need to remind myself that success in these areas at 30 is going to look different than it did back then ... and in a good way. Back then, sure, the world seemed much more black and white, but it was also more complicated with self-esteem questions, wacked-out hormones and other reasons for teenage angst. My world today may seem way more complicated and more grey than I had hoped, but at this point in life, I am finally in a position to do something significant about it. My sister encouraged me the other day, saying that I should be happy to be turning 30 because there is no longer any reason for people not to take me seriously anymore. :)

So now the question is, where do I go from here? I am at a major crossroads right now -- just about done school and starting to look for work. I will be moving home with my parents in mid-August, and from there, I have no idea what kind of work I will be involved in or even where I will live (I'm thinking Vancouver/Victoria, but who knows?). I could use your prayers as I try to sort this all out. I'm still in the excited/hopeful stage, and I pray that I find direction before that hope turns to lost discouragement. That being said, this year has taught me that if I have a safe place to sleep, food to eat, and people who love me, it's all good. I told myself that again just the other day when my fridge completely died and now all I have to eat for the next 4 weeks are non-refrigerated/non-cooked food items. Yet, I'm not starving, I'm safe in my little 100sq. ft living space, I have people who love me, and for that I should be very thankful. That's more than many and I'm trying not to forget that.

Well, it's late, and I should really get to bed. Hope you are all well, and I would love to hear from you soon. Take care,

Love, KNL

vendredi 16 mai 2008

God of the 20%


Well, it's mid-May, and the first signs of spring are finally out after an endless, wicked winter. Between mid-November and mid-April, Quebec City received more than 540cm of snow (about 18ft), and there are still some snowbanks that meteorologists say will still be here in late July. Thankfully, though, it's warming up and we've had no relapses back into winter since mid-April.
My pics of Quebec now have a little colour and that makes me very, very happy. :)

On May 1st, I wrote my last final exam and handed in my last term paper. A couple days ago, I got my final marks, and thank God, I passed everything (and even did a little better than I expected)! God certainly gets every ounce of credit for any success I may have had this last term. This semester was supposed to be a little easier than last semester, but somehow, my motivation and confidence levels have been at an all-time low these last few months. I used to delight in school, and lately, I have been dragging myself through 'all the hoops' just to get it done. Maybe I bit off more than I could chew. Maybe it's a sure sign that the end of school is near ... who knows. No matter what, I am just so thankful that the worst is over, and that all I have left to do is my thesis project (which should be done sometime between October and Christmas). Back in January, on the advice of many other friends who got to the thesis stage in their degree and joined the work force before they were done (and subsequently never finished their degrees), I decided to stay in Quebec until EVERYTHING was done (thesis and all). Before this, I had given myself the option to come home (or go stay with my sibs on the prairies) to write my thesis, but knowing me, I would spend all my time with my family and no time on my homework. Deciding to stay here in Quebec through the summer made me super homesick, but God has provided a little relief by sending Erin and her friend Abbie out here in February, and my Mom and Dad out here in June. I am so thankful for that - I know that coming here is a very expensive ticket, and I appreciate how much they love me for coming to Quebec when they could otherwise go to more tropical (English-speaking) destinations. :)

As for that class I mentioned in my last post (the one with all weekly oral presentations) ... by some miracle, God spared me every single week of the semester (probability: 20% chance of never getting selected). Crazy odds, but what are odds to the God Who determines the fate of His children? Now, to most people, this may not seem like an important event to call for God's divine intervention, but for me, it was huge. For starters, these spontaneous debates are to be done in French with other scholarly francophones (like a fifth grader debating quantum physics with a room full of PhD's), and for me, there was an extra challenge that caused me an inordinate amount of anxiety. Some of you may already know that my whole life, I have struggled with a moderate (6/10) level of stuttering. It was much worse as a kid (more like 8/10), but as I've gotten older, I've found ways either to substitute words I cannot pronounce with other ones, or just avoid talking altogether. Unfortunately, my success in improving my spoken English has had no effect on my spoken French, and since arriving in this completely French environment back in August, my stuttering difficulties have come back with a vengeance. On a good day in English, I can get out 60% of what I want to say. When I'm low on sleep or stressed out (or in my second language), I only can say about 30% of what I really would like to say. Just imagine not being able to say every third word you want to say, and needing to either:

a) come up with an equivalent pronounceable word on the spot

b) ending your sentence early and pretending you meant to

c) just not even trying to say anything for fear that the conversation will end embarassingly.

I often wonder if I would be a chattier person if not for these problems :), but being quiet has its own advantages, I'm sure. One of them is clearly spelled out in 2 Corinthians 12: 7-10:

To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Another passage is found in John 9:1-3:
As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked him, "Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?"

"Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life.

So, as I understand it, our weaknesses have the remarkable effect of reminding us to depend on God. Through this one weakness of mine (and I have many), I am daily reminded that I need God even to get out the basic communications needed to get through my day. I need His help to talk with my profs about my schoolwork. I need His help on the phone when I call for information. I even need His help to order Chicken McNuggets at Micky D's (which I don't eat anymore - why do we pay for that stuff anyway? ha). So even though I would pray away this difficulty in a second if I could, I will try instead to focus more on the God who never asks me to do more than I am capable. Another passage I have drawn confort from is in Exodus 4:10-12:
Moses said to the LORD, "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue."

The LORD said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."

Another way God has been helping me work through this frustrating scenario is by providing me with a great (yet pricy) speech therapist here in Quebec City. Stuttering is a condition for which there is no 100% cure, but there seem to be some coping techniques that can help improve a stutterer's fluency. My therapist has been a real encouragement these past few weeks, and even if my stuttering only improves marginally, it will have been worth it just to be able to talk to an expert about a problem that is highly misunderstood by a lot of people.

On a more exciting topic, on May 29th, the Governor General will be hosting a special luncheon at the Citadelle (her official residence here in Quebec City) to inaugurate a redoubt and to celebrate the city's 400th anniversary. She invited a delegation from ULaval to attend, and I was chosen among other students and staff at our school! I know, most people wouldn't be excited in the least about this, but like my good friend Allison says, "It's like a country fan having lunch with Garth Brooks," (she's a huge fan). ha. Out west, we never seem to get opportunities like this to be involved in government stuff, so I am excited to be a part of it now.

Well, I better get going. Hope you are all well, and hope to hear from you sometime soon.
Take care,

KNL

lundi 3 mars 2008

Winter fun


Sorry it's been so long since I updated this ... kinda forgot about it, then got super busy. My Christmas cards haven't even been sent out yet. :( It was a nice thought, but if they get out before July, I will be happy. ha.

This semester has been crazy busy, but in good ways. School started Jan. 14th and it was nice to not have to relearn all the little detail-things that complicate a first semester somewhere. About four weeks later, my sister Erin and her good friend Abbie (in the pic with me) came for a 9-day trip to see me here in Québec. We bunked out in my tiny dorm room, and had a super great time together. Erin is the first person from home to see where I'm at, and that was really special. After they left, I got a little caught up in my classes then headed down to Sherbrooke to see my good friend Greta for a few days. She and I go way back, to when she was in her first year at NBI and I was still in high school. It was great to see her - we figured we hadn't seen each other in at least 8 years. Lots of catching up, lots of funny memories. :) I am so thankful for friends like that.

Now the 'social high' is over, and things are mellowing a little. I am really anxious to get my classes over with. They have been probably the hardest part about being here (besides the financial stuff last semester). I think my courses are a little easier this semester than last, but they still stress me out, especially the giant oral presentations and stuff. I have this one class where we have to write a two-page essay every week on something we found interesting in the reading. That part of the assignment is super easy, but the prof has decided that every week, he will pull out 5 names out of an envelope, and those 5 people will need to present their thesis to the class - no cue cards or anything - and then have the class drill them on the flaws in their logic. Terrifying enough, but the worst part is that, even if your name gets picked, he puts all the names back in for next week, so potentially you could be chosen every single week ... or not at all. I don't remember the last time I prayed so specifically and desperately for something (sad, I know, other things should move me more than oral presentations, but we'll work on that later), and against statistical odds (which I now know how to calculate), I have not been chosen in 5 weeks. 2 more to go till the end. This is already a miracle for me, but 'total immunity' would be superb. :) I'll keep you posted.

Another funny 'mini-victory' happened on the weekend. My ESL class always bugs me about having trouble ordering food at McDonald's. The joke is that I can explain political nuances and government stuff with little difficulty, but have trouble with the day-to-day things I never learned outside the classroom. Anyway, it has been my goal to get up to the counter at Micky D's and order "Poulet McCroquettes" (Poo-let-mik-crlo-ket) - harder to say than it looks. I got up my courage, marched up to the lady at the till, looked her square in the eye and said, "J'aimerais 6 morceaux de Poulet McCroquettes." And for a split second, I felt great, until she said, "Et quelle sauce voudrais-tu?" Sauce? Dang! I have no idea how they translate from English to French ... I jogged my memory and thanks to years of studying food labels one came to me, but of course, not the one I wanted. :) Small victory, but funny nonetheless.

Anyway, I better get back to homework or something else productive. Miss you all very much, and hope you are well where you're at.

Kristen

lundi 3 décembre 2007

The Home Stretch ...


18 more sleeps till I am safe at home in Abbotsford. Ahh. Normally time flies the older you get, but I am sure these last four months have been the longest four months of my life. Don't get me wrong - I have enjoyed enough adventure these last 16 weeks to fill several years. It has been a dream come true for me to live on the East Coast in a French-speaking environment, and I have been pleasantly surprised at how warm the people here are to 'foreigners' (well, English-speaking Canadians anyway). I have made so many new friends and have experienced at least one new thing every week that I've never tried before. That being said, this semester has been a unique blend of difficulties that have sometimes made the days drag on. I have already complained enough about my hardships, so I thought it might be nice to focus on the really great things that have happened thus far.

1. New friends - Classmates in my program, friends in other classes, friends at a women's Bible Study and at church, at work, etc. I think in 7 years in Vancouver, I never met so many people.

2. New job - Having left ESL back in 2005 after seriously burning out, I was so hesitant to get back on the horse. Since I really needed the cash, I accepted the only job I could find, and it has turned out to be a source of great encouragement for me this semester. I have the most amazing class of students at Revenue Canada who regularly express their gratitude for my work. On days when I feel like the stuttering, shy little Anglo at Laval, these 11 'tax collectors' give me encouragement that all this emotional investment in improving myself and my French will one day pay off. It's a God thing, I'm sure.

3. New 'home away from home' - Sure, I cook everything in the microwave, but this dorm room has been an unexpected blessing. I was super hesitant to live in a dorm - I didn't even enjoy it so much back when I was 21 - but this little sanctuary has been a great place to come home to after a long day at school. It's super cheap ($250 a month), it's across the street from a giant grocery store and 3 malls, and now that it's winter, I have underground access to every building on campus. I only need to wear my jacket on the days I leave campus. How great is that! (like my mom would say :) To boot, my hall is super quiet, clean, well-maintained, and best of all, safe. Love it. Sure a step up from our slum back in South Vancouver ... :)

4. New direction - After months of agonizing about it, I finally decided on a thesis topic that highly interests me (issues of national security) and I have found a professor willing to supervise me and my work. Not only that, but he is also willing to have me write the thesis in English. When I planned to come here, I was very gung-ho about writing my thesis in French. Though I could probably write it in French if I really wanted to, I would go broke having to pay someone to proofread it constantly, and from my experience this last semester, I would also spend more time worrying about the French than I would worrying about the content. Writing a thesis in English is hard enough (so I've been told); I would hate to have the quality of my work suffer just because of a language deficiency. Surprisingly, now that I have decided to tackle that project in English, I feel much more inspired to work at French in other areas. My speaking needs a lot more work than my written French, so now I can dedicate all that freed-up time to practicing the things I really need to work on, like ordering Chicken McNuggets at McDonalds. ha. My students tease me about that all the time. They often ask me how school is going, and one day I explained to them that I have little difficulty speaking about academic topics (politics, etc.) in French, but it's the everyday little things I have no experience in. I told them that the few times I actually went to McDonalds here in Québec City, I really wanted Chicken McNuggets, but for the life of me could not pronounce 'Poulet McCroquettes'. Both times, I went to the counter, looked the cashier in the eye and said, 'J'aimerais le P-pp ... ... un cheeseburger.' :) My students think that's the funniest thing ever, and they have threatened to take me to McDonalds on our last day of class and have me order for all of them. I told them they were all getting cheeseburgers. :) ha.

5. New places - In my short time here, in between classes and other time consuming activities, I have had the privilege of visiting so many new places. Québec City has so much history and culture to explore when all I have is an afternoon and a valid bus pass. On our way here to Québec (and again this last weekend), we got to see Trois-Rivières and every little hick town between here and Montréal. A friend and I spent this last weekend in Montréal and took in as many of the sights as possible. In November, our prof from SFU who came to visit us took us on a road trip to l'Île d'Orléans just outside Québec. And last but certainly not least, I got to drive along the Atlantic Coast to see Rocher Percé. That was an unbelievable trip that I will not soon forget (seeing as how I took more than 600 pics ... who can forget anything? ha). Changes in scenery always do me good, and I am so thankful for every opportunity I've had to go see something new.

Well, life looks pretty good when you put it that way. In the meantime, I have 3 oral presentations, three 20 page projects and 2 final exams to finish in the next 2 weeks. I am praying for B- in everything (or more if the Lord is feeling generous), or the grace to take whatever mark I deserve. We'll see, and I'll keep you posted. Hope you are all well and enjoying the holidays so far. Miss you all lots, and hope to hear from you soon (and see some of you as well!).

KNL

vendredi 16 novembre 2007

Trading in expectations


Remembrance Day (Jour du Souvenir) at the National Assembly near the Citadel


The last few weeks have been filled with all kinds of "bouleversements" like we say in French; loosely translated, the term refers to the way laundry gets thrown around in the dryer. :) I have had a sort of epiphany lately about how I have been going about my life here in Québec. After weeks of feeling very lost in my homework, thesis preparation and life plans, I think I've started to shift gears a little (since the way I was going about things really wasn't working for me at all). To be honest, I had no idea what I was getting myself into, applying to grad school last fall. And grad school in a second language, to boot. Not that it has been a bad choice; on the contrary - I think it will pay off nicely in the end. But frankly, back in Vancouver, I had no idea things would be this complicated. I find myself spending twice as much time correcting the French grammar in my assignments as I do actually putting all the content together. I think that in my desire to really perfect my French while here at Laval, I forgot that I was here to study Political Science and prepare for my future career. Sounds funny, but those who know me well know I have a one-track mind - no chewing gum and walking for me, thanks. ha. Now that I realize what I've been doing, I think I will better be able to focus on my work and worry about the language afterwards.

Speaking of language, I have two new jobs! They only total about 3 hours of work a week, but it's a start anyway. My main position is teaching English to public servants at Revenue Canada. I know I promised myself that I never needed to teach ESL again (after all, getting away from ESL is why I am back in school for these 4 extra years), but desperate times call for desperate measures. ha. Anyway, my class is made up of ten 30-50year-old Quebeckers who are already quite advanced. Because they work for the Federal government, their work pays for their language training, so once a week for two hours, they get to hang out with me. :) In Vancouver, I worked almost exclusively with Korean students, so I catered my first lesson to a Korean audience (as in, I do most of the speaking, etc.). Well, before I even opened my mouth to begin my very first lesson, the fire alarm rang, and the whole building needed to be evacuated. About 20 minutes later, when we were all back in the class (and I gathered my wits about me), I started to talk when one of them interrupted me and said, "So, I guess we will all introduce ourselves to you ... " And there began a 45 minute session of them telling me all about themselves. One lady even shared the details of her love life with the whole class (and I mean details you would only hear in a French classroom - no kidding). I sat back in my 'teacher-chair' and thought, "I'm not in Korea anymore." Well, I went home, overhauled my whole plan, and since then, things have been going so well. They are such an amazing class. Who knew teaching adults could be so fun and rewarding? They are so responsive and interested in learning the language. They aren't afraid to make mistakes, and they love to talk (which works for me, because I would rather not). They have given me a lot of positive feedback, and it is quickly becoming the highlight of my week. Even the security guards I need to check in with in the lobby try to practice their basic English with me. It sure shatters the stereotype of the anti-anglo Quebecker that we hear about so often on the news. Can't believe everything you hear, I guess.

My other job is a little less glamourous, but it is something I enjoy anyway - proofreading and translating for one of my professors. I've only been given about 3 projects so far, but hopefully, things will pick up so my financial worries will lessen.

Another dry aspect of 'shopkeeping' that has added to my feeling more optomistic about school is that I have completely thrown out my former thesis topic and have decided instead to study what really interests me: questions of National Security. My former topic ("The Socio-Economic Impact of the Diamond Mining Industry on Northern Canadian Natives and the Inuit") - though interesting - kind of led me to a dead end. There wasn't enough research done to support an 8 month project, so I needed to let it go. As soon as I decided on the new topic, a series of Federal Government recruitment seminars and conferences came up all within the same week related to my new topic. This gave me hope for life and work after school is over, and it's inspiring me to regroup and try to 're-tackle' the way I have been going about things. I feel a lot more confident about where I am headed, and hopefully, this is also where God would have me go.

Well, I better get to bed. v x ua ... Uh, those last letters were typed into my computer from a stack of textbooks that spontaneously decided to jump off my top shelf and land directly on top on my computer. Scared the daylights outta me. Now I can't stop laughing. Oh, that's so embarrassing when you're alone. ha. Well, OH! I forgot - I have to tell you a funny story ...

The other day, I was at a friend's house for a girls' pizza party/movie nite. We were all (10 of us) seated at the table eating pizza and salad, and there was also a bowl of croutons beside the salad. When the hostess had finished most of her pizza, she said (to everyone in general, but us out-of-towners in particular), "In Québec, we do something a little strange. We put margarine on our 'croutes' (that was the French word she used)." I thought about what she said, and wondered, "'Croutes'? What are 'croutes'? ... Maybe that is how they say 'Croutons' in French ... but I thought 'Croutons' were French ... Well, I should never assume anything ... " She went on for a while about it, then walked to the fridge to get the margarine. When she came back to the table, I was still really confused, so I asked (loud enough so everyone could hear, of course), "But how do you put the margarine on the croutons?" She looked at me blankly, paused, then said, "What?" "You know, they're so small ... " Then she burst out laughing, saying, "No, not 'croutons' - I meant pizza 'crusts'!" Then she thought a little more about my thought process and couldn't stop laughing at the image of me trying to spread butter on every little crouton. Trying to save my dignity, I responded, "Well, THAT's how we eat our croutons in Vancouver ... " To which she replied, "Yeah, right!" Sigh. Fun was had by all.

Anyway, gotta get to bed. Talk to you soon - God bless.

KNL

mardi 23 octobre 2007

Aventures en Gaspésie!


This last weekend was absolutely incredible. After a month or more of school, language and financial stress, God provided for me and a couple girlfriends to go on a super-cheap roadtrip to the Atlantic coast. Armed with 3 days worth of peanut-butter and jelly and a rental car with unlimited kilometres, we left Québec City Friday morning at 7am, pumped full of caffeine and ready for anything.

Our destination the first night was an auberge (like a dorm-motel) in a little coastal village called Sainte-Anne-des-Monts. It was supposed to be about a 6 hour drive, but being as Ashley, Sarah and I are all obsessed with getting that elusive 'perfect photo', we took 12 hours to get there. The journey was the best part of the trip. Sarah had been out east about 10 years ago, but for Ashley and I, this was as far east in Canada as we had ever been. We took Route 132 most of the way - it runs along the south shore of St. Lawrence, and for about 90% of the trip, the ocean is in plain view on the north side of the road. Québec City is situated on the St. Lawrence where it narrows, and the further you go east, the wider it opens up until you completely lose sight of the other shore (and are looking straight at Newfoundland, far off in the distance). Our first photo stop was at Sainte-Anne-de-la-Pocatière (see photos on right) - it was super cold, but the view was fantastic. Next, we stopped in Rivière-du-Loup, and enjoyed peanut-butter and jelly near a waterfall. Between Rivière-du-Loup and Rimouski, we came across ruins of an old stone house - it looked really old, but there was no sign explaining what it was or who it belonged to (see photos). Great for cool photos, though. The rest of the day was more of the same - drive a little, stop for photos, drive a little more, stop for more photos - until we finally made it to Sainte-Anne-des-Monts for the night.

The next morning, we left before the sun came up, and when dawn finally arrived, the scenery had dramatically changed from the day before. Our first stop was an old red lighthouse in a tiny fishing village. The highway signs warned drivers of crashing waves that may overcome the highway. The day started out cloudy, and at random points on the way, the winds really picked up and were so strong that we couldn't even keep our cameras steady for a photo. We were standing on a cliff (at least 100m high) not far from Forillon National Park trying to take pictures but were getting drenched. When we got back into the car, we licked our lips and discovered that it wasn't rain that had got us all wet, but ocean spray from 100m below. It was a wild exerience - I have never been in winds that strong, and frankly, I hope I never do again! The storm was at its strongest driving through Forillon National Park, so we couldn't really see the cliffs that we had heard so much about, but that was OK. On the other side, the weather quickly calmed down, and the sun even peeked out for awhile. In Gaspé, we came across the site where Jacques Cartier placed a cross to claim Canada for France back in 1534, surrounded by monuments with very politically incorrect passages written from his diary on his impressions of the Native people of the day. About an hour more on the highway, we arrived at our destination - Rocher Percé (see photos). It is a giant piece of barren rock that sits like an island jutting 88m up and 433m long off the shores of the village, with a giant hole near the seaward end. It was absolutely breathtaking - nothing like it on the West Coast that I have ever seen before. We were hoping to walk out to it (it's possible in summer during low tide), but the sea was really stormy, and the stairway down to the water was closed. We found a pier on the shore, and spent about an hour taking pictures of it from every possible angle. It was amazing the way the colours of the rock changed as the sun tried to come out and the clouds shifted. You could probably spend a whole day just watching the Rock adjust to its natural lighting. We nearly got drenched from the crashing waves on the pier that not only spewed water, but also spit out all kinds of sealife onto the shore. Some of the crashing waves were at least 6-7m high, and they were strong enough to pull you back into the sea. After taking an inordinate amount of photos, we decided to head back 4 hours down the road to Sainte-Anne-des-Monts for the night. On the way back, we came across at least 10 cars with giant game tied to the front of all sizes and makes of cars (moose, deer, etc) - some had the whole animal, others had huge moose heads attached to the hoods of their cars like bullhorns on a Texan Cadillac. I grew up in the sticks, but I have never seen anything like that in my life. When we got back to the auberge, we asked our dorm-mother about it; she said hunting was like a religion out here, and that today was the last day of moose season. Men put these dead animals on their cars like trophies to show off to everyone else. She said that locals get so worked up about the hunt that the conservation officers spend more time breaking up fights than they do checking for poachers. Another thing we noticed was how quiet things were on the road and in towns - not only was tourist season long over (so most businesses were closed), but most locals were in the mountains hunting. It made it easy to not spend any money we didn't have to - our PB&J and other snacks suited us just fine.

Another quirk of this area is that most towns are one street wide - everyone seems to live right on the highway and or right on the shore. Very few yards have trees, although less than a mile from the shore are giant forests and mountains. Directions to places are given in terms of their proximity to the local Catholic church - and no matter how small the town is, they have a giant church that stands 5 times taller than any other building (sort of like grain elevators in Saskatchewan). Gas stations are very basic - gas and car parts are the only things sold there (no snacks, coffee, etc). The further east you drive, the less likely anyone will speak English with you (although if they do, they will advertise it on their sign - "We speak English!"). Whoever built Route 132 decided that going around hills and gradually grading the road must have been a waste of time - some hills were 17% grade, and I can't remember how many times I slowed down the car because the road seemed to go straight down a hill. It was like a roller coaster sometimes - ha.

It was a much needed escape from life at Laval, and I am so thankful for all the fun we had together. Now, I am into midterms and am praying for a miracle to do well on my Economics exam on Thursday. Next week is Reading break, and I will be using it to get ahead in a lot of my work. Hope you all are doing well - I would love to hear from you. Miss you all, and talk to you again soon.

KNL

vendredi 12 octobre 2007

Turning the corner

Well, I know this will probably cost me politically, but I just couldn't resist. :) By accident the other day, I came across a student rally for Mr. Gilles Duceppe, leader of the Bloc Québécois (the political party whose main concern is breaking out of the Canadian federation). I am no separatist, but being an extremely curious person, I thought, "Well, here's something I've never done before," and I decided to take it in. Students were given "Oui!" pins and Québec flag stickers just outside the door of the theatre, so I helped myself (Bunny was so excited - he's a big fan of Lucien Bouchard - ha) and went in. I was standing right by the door at the back when Mr. Duceppe walked in to the applause of the crowd and took his place on the podium. I stayed for about 10 minutes, then went home to have lunch. Now I can say I've done pretty much everything.

Well, today I finally got the second half of my Student Loan (yay!). Hard to believe it took from mid-July to October 12th to get everything in order, but now that beast is behind me - Dieu merci. I've decided to not talk about it anymore because it only upsets me - but I do thank God for intervening in the meantime. I came across a familiar verse today that had special meaning in light of everything that has happened for me in the financial realm this year:

Matthew 6:25-34
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I find that passage sobering. I even teared up a little in coming across it. It's funny how in life we go through certain situations that, at the time, seem 'as bad as it can get', and yet later, life's path leads us to darker recesses of the valley. Growing up in northern Saskatchewan, we didn't have a lot, but I remember never thinking we would go without - Mom and Dad were great at protecting us that way. I knew they didn't have much, but we always had a warm house and food on the table. Then, last year, when Allison and I moved into Vancouver to got to school and our student loans took till the end of September to arrive, I thought, "Man, this is going to be a benchmark for me - I don't think I'll ever be this poor again." I wouldn't say I was especially hungry - we had all the canned soup a couple of college girls could want - but we had no hot water or heat (for 8 months), mice running all over our apartment and the landlady from the dark side. On the upside, we had each other, and that helped. This semester, I have a great place to live, but there was a point last week where I had been eating spaghetti noodles twice a day for about two weeks, and all I had in my cupboard were two cans of ham, a cup of uncooked rice and about another cup of uncooked oatmeal. Yet God intervened on that day with enough money to get proper food. My faith at the moment just before the money came in was low - I didn't doubt so much that He could provide - I just never remember feeling so helpless and upset at the situation in general. It was like God was talking me to the edge of my faith in Him. Sure, it's easy to trust Him when there's food on the table, but will I trust Him when the cupboard says I have another two meagre days of food and no promise of further provision? I think I royally flunked that test of faith, but in retrospect I have learned to focus on the Giver and less on the cupboard. Anyway, like I said, enough about this topic ... on to better things!

I am starting to feel a little more comfortable with life here in la Belle Province. I've made a lot of new friends and I'm starting to get into more of a routine. Fall seems to have taken root - the leaves have all changed and the strong autumn winds have blown many of them onto the ground. It's been raining for the last few days and locals say the snow isn't far off. When my loan came in, the first things I bought were new snow boots and a new winter jacket. I realized I hadn't owned either since, well, the 20th century. ha. I'm looking forward to the snow; I think it will bring back fun memories of my childhood that haven't crossed my mind in years. It's funny - even having a significant African population here at school has brought back so many memories from my short time in Burkina Faso. Compared to Vancouver, it really is like another world here in Québec.

Well, I should get to my homework. Miss you all, and hope to hear from you soon.

KNL

samedi 29 septembre 2007

The honeymoon is over ...

I'm so glad this week is finally over. By about Tuesday, I was ready just to lock myself in a closet and wait out the rest of the week, but sometimes getting back in the saddle is the thing to do to get past whatever's bothering you. And many things decided to bother me this week ... :)

Monday started OK. My research methods class was first - it is probably my favourite class because we get help developing our thesis, but I have trouble with the class discussion groups. The class is pretty packed, and with that amount of people talking at once, I can't understand anything that is being said. I was in a group with 3 other people, and a few of them were giving me pointers on my thesis subject. I was grateful for the help, for sure. One of the girls told me that I should ask the teacher about something in my topic, and I agreed that that would be a good idea - even though I really wasn't sure what she was wanting me to ask the teacher about; it was just easier to agree with her than to constantly keep asking, "What did you say?" "Could you repeat that?" every two minutes (noise problem, not a language problem). Then, lucky me, the teacher came around, and my new friend, trying to be helpful, told him, "Kristen has a question for you." He looked me straight in the eye, and I panicked - not only did I not want to ask him a question in front of so many people, but I had no idea what question she was wanting me to ask him. I told them it was OK and that I would talk to him later, but I must have come off looking like quite the weirdo. I got pretty flustered after that, but instead of being able to leave class and go de-tox in my room, I had to straight to my next class where I was supposed to do a 10-minute oral presentation on ... I can't even remember now, it's been that kind of week. ha. Anyway, that went surprisingly better than I thought, except that I had to do it in front of the guest speaker the teacher invited to our class that day. I still have no idea how I did (as far as a mark) because that teacher says very little, and mostly just lets us take over debate in that class. That worries me. Our oral participation in debates in that class is worth 30% of our final mark - being quick on my toes is definitely not a gift of mine, so that is a constant stress for me every Monday as well. Our teacher is also the program director who decides if we graduate or not - I wish he would just react to my work every once in a while so I know where I stand. Anyway, I went home after 6 straight hours of class, thinking the worst part of the week was over.

Tuesday morning, I got a phone call on my dorm phone telling me that (what I thought was) the Registrar's office had something for me to pick up, and that I should just ask the person at the front desk for an envelope from the "Bee-cee Meeneestree of Ejookayshee-on" - that should have been my first clue that a language kerfuffle lie ahead. I have found that many people in the Registrar's office can't read English, and this has majorly complicated my BC Student Loans application - I still have received no funding because of mistakes at Laval, but more on that later. Anyway, I went to the Registrar, waited in line, and asked the lady at the front desk about my envelope. She had no idea what I was talking about and was unnecessarily rude to me. Fine, whatever. I asked her if she could guess where that phone call this morning came from (since, evidently, it wasn't them), and she was quite sure that the Political Science Department had what I needed. I walked over to that building, and eventually found the right person to talk to. I retold her the whole story of where I had been this morning, and she had no idea what I was talking about. I asked her if she could guess maybe who ELSE may have called me about that. She thought maybe it was the Financial Aid Department. So, discouraged even more, I headed clear across campus to Financial Aid. I waited in line and re-retold my tale to the lady at the front counter. By this time, I am pretty stressed out and nervous, so not only is my French deteriorating, but I start to stutter a lot through it. She, too was quite rude as well and had no idea what I was talking about. She told me that I should go to the Registrar's office. She clearly was not listening to me. I said, "I went to the Reigistrar. She sent me to the Poli Sci Dept. She sent me here. Is there a FOURTH place you think I may have gotten this call from?" By this time, I am practically crying. Some kind soul behind her took a little pity on me and took me aside to call around to see what he could find. He wasn't able to find anything, but he tried to comfort me by saying, "Well, I guess if it was really important, whoever called you will call you back." I laughed a little, thanked him for his help, then went to the washroom to have a little meltdown. I walked back to my dorm room and saw a huge red puddle under my fridge. I opened the door, and everything had melted, including the strawberries I had frozen in little Glad containers. My fridge must have come unplugged yesterday somehow, and now everything smelled funny. Another meltdown on my bed. I had to throw everything out, and all I had was a small can of beans for dinner.

Long story short, I called BC Student Loans (for the relief of being able to talk out my problem in English), and they told me that Laval had somehow messed up on my paperwork, and that I should take the loan form in myself, have the Registrar stamp it, then fax it to Student Loans on my own. I agreed to do that Friday. I went back to the Registrar (which closes for 1.5 hours at lunch), and just made it in the door before they locked up. I gave her the form and asked her to stamp it for me so I could fax it in and get my long-overdue Student Loan money. She took it, and told me she would fax it off in 3-5 business days. Completely exasperated, I gave her my best, "Are you kidding?" look, but knowing that she would do nothing to speed it up, I thanked her and left. I know this is no one person's fault, but maybe the 'administration' doesn't realize that while all my paperwork is being delayed, I am feeling hungry (for not having my loan money, and for losing everything in my fridge), that I can't pay rent on Sunday, or my phone bill, etc. I get that there are always procedures to follow, but I have been in Quebec more than a month - I really thought I would have money by now. Fortunately, the "Bank of Dad" has come to my rescue and offered to lend me what I need to get by. I am so grateful for that, but frustrated that my financial woes have spilled over onto my parents' shoulders. It looks like I SHOULD have my loan in order by about October 15th, and in November, I can start this whole process over again for the Winter Semester loan. Sigh.

Well, all is not lost. This is getting long, so I'll keep it brief. Even with my Student Loan, I still need some extra money to get through the semester, so I decided to get a job. I was hired this week at "l'École des Langues de l'Estrie" - an ESL school that works mostly with French-speaking public servants and business people who need to learn English for work or who need to pass a public servants' language exam for a new job. I was hesitant to get back into teaching, but so far, this is what I have found for work so I will teach until something more political comes up. I'm grateful for the job, and hopefully, they will have a contract for me soon. I am hoping that somehow, in teaching public servants English, I will meet people who will be looking to hire at their government office, and since they will know me already from English school ... who knows? Maybe this is the Lord's roundabout way of getting me my dream job, whatever that might be. At this point, I would be satisfied with a positive income instead of constant loans from so many people. God does provide, though, even in this way, so I should be grateful. When I finish school, I would really like to financially help out others who struggle with funding school - it's just so crazy to worry about money when school has so many stresses of its own.

Anyway, speaking of school, I have lots of work to do, so I better go. My French friend and I are leading a 3-hour class discussion on Monday (in that same class) on the legitimate use of violence by the state. Yeah, I don't know what that means either, but whatever. We'll put on a good show. :) Miss you all.

KNL